Monday, 14 March 2011

There goes the steam train...

I've been on 3 dates with a guy. He lives in town, works near me and is all round a lovely guy... but the excitement I had about the fact that a guy wanted to get to know me, hasn't gone off me after the first date etc etc has just gone.... there is something in my head that just switches off the good and decides it's going to focus on the negative instead - that or just gets bored :( When I'm with him it's fine, we just hang out and chill but it seems the instant I get home and sit down to chill out I just don't want to know and I don't know how to turn that off - Yesterday he texted me maybe once or twice in the evening and even that annoyed me because they just happened to coincide with my relaxing, watching Jurassic Park II (not even that good a film) and generally just cutting myself off from civilisation - then the texts coming in just seemed to aggravate me >:(

I need to break out of this love of solitude, it's not beneficial in the long run - I just don't know how :( I shall just have to start watching how I start thinking and actually want to do something sociable :O

Watch this space... there will be progress (I hope!)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Love, I absolutely get what you're describing. :D Though it definitely sucks considering you really seem into that guy whenever you tweet about him. I truly hope you'll get out of that 'habit' soon and don't pass that chance.